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IT HAS BEEN HALF A YEAR SINCE I LEFT MY HOME ON MY ADVENTURE THROUGH LIFE. IT SEEMS THAT IT HAS BEEN A LIFETIME. I MISS LOTS OF FACES. I THINK I KEEP TRYING TO REPLACE THEM WITH NEW ONES, I DON'T KNOW WHY I DO THIS. I GUESS AT TIMES I FEEL EMPTY WITHOUT ALL MY DEAREST FRIENDS THAT HAVE MADE ME WHO I AM. WHICH MAKES ME WONDER, WHO I AM WITHOUT THEM? HAVE I CHANGED? AM I STILL THE SAME PERSON I WAS 7 MONTHS AGO? HAVE I CHANGED FOR THE BETTER OR THE WORST? IN MY MIND I AM THE SAME PERSON I ALWAYS HAVE BEEN. I'M HAPPY WITH MY LIFE AND WHERE I'M AT AND THE PEOPLE THAT ARE IN IT. ALTHOUGH THERE ARE NOT AS NEARLY AS MANY PEOPLE THAT USED TO BE. MAINLY THERE IS ONLY ONE PERSON THAT I ACTUALLY FEEL THAT CARES FOR ME IN THIS CITY. I GUESS I JUST WANT ALL MY FRIENDS TO KNOW, NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE OR WHERE YOUR GOING THAT I HONESTLY STILL HAVE A PLACE IN MY HEART FOR YOU. IF I HAVEN'T TALKED TO YOU IN A LONG TIME ITS NOT THAT I DON'T CARE. IT'S NOT THAT I HAVE ABANDONED YOU OR HAVE FORGOTTEN ALL OF OUR MEMORIES. I REMEMBER WHEN I WAS YOUNGER RAISING HELL WITH ALVARO, LUCASS, AND GEO. WE SAID THAT NO MATTER WHAT WE WOULD BE FRIENDS FOREVER. I KNEW EVEN BACK THEN WHEN I WAS YOUNG THAT WE WOULD ALL GO OUR SEPARATE WAYS IN LIFE, BUT I FEEL LIKE I ABANDONED YOU GUYS AND IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE A SHITTY FRIEND. YOU GUYS GAVE ME THE STRENGTH NEEDED. I LOVE YOU GUYS AND I NEVER WANT YOU TO FORGET IT. NO MATTER WHERE WE ALL END UP. AS FOR JASON DEMPSEY, THANKS FOR ALL THE INFLUENCE YOU GAVE ME, YOU TREATED ME AS A BROTHER. YOU SHOWED ME THAT NOTHING CAN HOLD ME DOWN, THAT I MAKE MY LIFE WHAT IT IS. FOR THE BETTER OR WORSE. MACK, YOU SHOWED ME SO MUCH ABOUT MYSELF THAT I NEVER KNEW WAS THERE. GAVE ME THE COURAGE TO BE MYSELF. I COULD GO ON FOR DAYS ABOUT HOW EVERYONE OF MY REAL FRIENDS HAVE HELPED ME GET TO WHERE I AM AND I THANK ALL OF YOU. REMEMBER THAT. REMEMBER THAT WE ARE OURSELVES AND NO ONE ELSE. OTHERS CAN ACCEPT THIS OR FUCK OFF. WE OUR STRONG. WHAT I HAVE CAME TO REALIZE IS THAT GROWING UP IN EVANSTON MAKES YOU HAVE A SOLID FUCKING SET OF FRIENDS. EVEN WHEN SOMETIMES YOU FEEL ABANDON BY THEM OR YOU HAVE ABANDONED SOME. TONY DEMPSEY, DON'T THINK THAT I WOULDN'T ACKNOWLEDGE YOU. YOU SHOWED ME HOW TO BE STONG AND PROUD OF WHAT I AM AND WHAT IM DOING. PLAYING TERRORIST WITH YOU IS REALLY THE GREATEST HIGHLIGHTS OF MY LIFE. SO I HAVE RANTED FOR QUITE A LONG POST TODAY, I HOPE ALL OF MY FRIENDS GET A CHANCE TO READ THIS SO THEY KNOW HOW I FEEL. I WANT ALL OF YOU TO KNOW THAT I ALWAYS HAVE A COUCH WAITING FOR YOU GUYS TO COME SLEEP ON. I DON'T EVER THINK FOR ONE SECOND THAT I HAVE FORGOTTEN ANY OF YOU. YOUR THE REASONS I HAVE HEART.


-NEB NOTELPATS


P.S. MY PHONE NUMBER HASN'T CHANGED SO DON'T BE AFRAID TO CALL.