ON A SUNDAY,

SO I SPENT THE MAJORITY OF THE DAY WORKING, DOING A LOT OF THINKING ALSO. I DECIDED WITH A LITTLE HELP FROM HEATHER THAT NEW BIKE TIRES, FOOT STRAPS, BOOKS AND CD'S ARE COMING BEFORE I GET MY SLEEVE STARTED. I DO BELIEVE I WILL START IT NEXT WEEK. I ALSO THOUGHT ABOUT MY FUTURE A LOT TODAY. I'M ONLY 19 AND HAVE A LOT OF LIFE LEFT AND YET I HAVE SO VERY LITTLE GOALS SO I DECIDED TO START MAKING SOME. A) I WANNA HAVE A FULL SET OF ACOUSTIC MUSIC BY ME WITH VOCALS. B) I'M VERY SHY ABOUT MY SINGING VOICE SO I AM TRYING TO IMPROVE VOCALS AND ALSO LET EVERYONE HEAR THEM. C) LEARN AT LEAST 10 WHITE STRIPES SONG ON ACOUSTIC WITH VOCALS AND ALL. D) SHOW MORE LOVE TOWARDS THE ONES THAT MATTER AND QUIT WASTING TIME ON POINTLESS RELATIONSHIPS WITH PEOPLE WHO DON'T CARE. E) START WRITING A NOVEL OR AT LEAST EVERY THOUGHT I HAVE AND THEN MAKE IT INTO A NOVEL AT SOME POINT. F) TRAVEL. G) BE A BETTER ALL AROUND PERSON.

THAT'S ALL I HAVE FOR TODAY

-BEN STAPLETON

SLEEVE

SO I AM REALLY HOPING WEDNESDAY WILL BE THE DAY TO START THE SLEEVE!!!!!! CROSS YOUR FINGERS THAT LADY JAY WILL HAVE SOME TIME AVAILABLE! SUPER STOKED TO SEE JASON AND CORY TONIGHT. THAT'S ALL FOR NOW...


<3'S

FOREVER AND EVER?

LIFE WORKS IN ODD WAYS. YOU SPEND THE MAJORITY OF THE TIME LOOKING FOR JUST ONE PERSON TO CALL YOURS. TO START A FAMILY, BE SUCCESSFUL. I GUESS THIS IS WHAT YOUR SUPPOSED TO DO. I MEAN THAT'S WHAT I WANT. I WANT KIDS THAT LOVE ME AND A BEAUTIFUL WIFE THAT ADORES AND SUPPORTS ME BUT HOW DO I KNOW WHEN SHE IS THE ONE? ARE WE SUPPOSED TO PUT OURSELVES THROUGH TESTS TO SEE HOW STRONG OUR LOVE REALLY IS? OR IS EVERYTHING JUST SUPPOSED TO FALL IN PLACE. THE SHITTY THING IS I DON'T REALLY KNOW ANYONE WHO CAN SAY THERE ARE IN LOVE OR MEANT FOR EACH OTHER, IT MAKES ME THINK THAT MAYBE LOVE IS JUST A BULLSHIT FIGMENT OF IMAGINATION. IF TH ATS SO THEN WHAT ARE THESE FEELINGS I GET? WHY DO I FEEL I CANT LET GO OF THIS GIRL FOR HOURS LET ALONE MONTHS OR YEARS? WHY DO I FEEL DEPRESSED WHEN I SHOULD BE HAPPY FOR HER? WHY AM I SELFISH AND STUBBORN, AND LASTLY WHY AM I EVEN FREAKING OUT LIKE THIS WHEN NOTHING IS EVEN DECIDED YET? YOU KNOW, I'M EITHER A SHITTY PERSON OR FUCKING INCREDIBLE.



-BEN

SESSIONING MY BODY!

SO FINALLY IM GETTING STARTED ON MY TATTOOS, SEEMS AS IF IT HAS TAKEN ME A LONG TIME TO GET IT GOING.. THREE HOURS TOMORROW!


-DOMINATIOUS



P.S. IF YOUR READING THIS I <3 YOU..

STOKED!

IM SERIOUSLY STOKED ON WHERE MY LIFE IS!

IM SERIOUSLY STOKED ON MY NEW TATTOO!

IM SERIOUSLY STOKED ON MY NEXT TATTOO APPOINTMENT!

IM SERIOUSLY STOKED ON THIS WONDERFUL APPLE BLOSSOM THATS IN MY LIFE!

IM SERIOUSLY STOKED ON LIFE!

PROGRESS?

IT HAS BEEN HALF A YEAR SINCE I LEFT MY HOME ON MY ADVENTURE THROUGH LIFE. IT SEEMS THAT IT HAS BEEN A LIFETIME. I MISS LOTS OF FACES. I THINK I KEEP TRYING TO REPLACE THEM WITH NEW ONES, I DON'T KNOW WHY I DO THIS. I GUESS AT TIMES I FEEL EMPTY WITHOUT ALL MY DEAREST FRIENDS THAT HAVE MADE ME WHO I AM. WHICH MAKES ME WONDER, WHO I AM WITHOUT THEM? HAVE I CHANGED? AM I STILL THE SAME PERSON I WAS 7 MONTHS AGO? HAVE I CHANGED FOR THE BETTER OR THE WORST? IN MY MIND I AM THE SAME PERSON I ALWAYS HAVE BEEN. I'M HAPPY WITH MY LIFE AND WHERE I'M AT AND THE PEOPLE THAT ARE IN IT. ALTHOUGH THERE ARE NOT AS NEARLY AS MANY PEOPLE THAT USED TO BE. MAINLY THERE IS ONLY ONE PERSON THAT I ACTUALLY FEEL THAT CARES FOR ME IN THIS CITY. I GUESS I JUST WANT ALL MY FRIENDS TO KNOW, NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE OR WHERE YOUR GOING THAT I HONESTLY STILL HAVE A PLACE IN MY HEART FOR YOU. IF I HAVEN'T TALKED TO YOU IN A LONG TIME ITS NOT THAT I DON'T CARE. IT'S NOT THAT I HAVE ABANDONED YOU OR HAVE FORGOTTEN ALL OF OUR MEMORIES. I REMEMBER WHEN I WAS YOUNGER RAISING HELL WITH ALVARO, LUCASS, AND GEO. WE SAID THAT NO MATTER WHAT WE WOULD BE FRIENDS FOREVER. I KNEW EVEN BACK THEN WHEN I WAS YOUNG THAT WE WOULD ALL GO OUR SEPARATE WAYS IN LIFE, BUT I FEEL LIKE I ABANDONED YOU GUYS AND IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE A SHITTY FRIEND. YOU GUYS GAVE ME THE STRENGTH NEEDED. I LOVE YOU GUYS AND I NEVER WANT YOU TO FORGET IT. NO MATTER WHERE WE ALL END UP. AS FOR JASON DEMPSEY, THANKS FOR ALL THE INFLUENCE YOU GAVE ME, YOU TREATED ME AS A BROTHER. YOU SHOWED ME THAT NOTHING CAN HOLD ME DOWN, THAT I MAKE MY LIFE WHAT IT IS. FOR THE BETTER OR WORSE. MACK, YOU SHOWED ME SO MUCH ABOUT MYSELF THAT I NEVER KNEW WAS THERE. GAVE ME THE COURAGE TO BE MYSELF. I COULD GO ON FOR DAYS ABOUT HOW EVERYONE OF MY REAL FRIENDS HAVE HELPED ME GET TO WHERE I AM AND I THANK ALL OF YOU. REMEMBER THAT. REMEMBER THAT WE ARE OURSELVES AND NO ONE ELSE. OTHERS CAN ACCEPT THIS OR FUCK OFF. WE OUR STRONG. WHAT I HAVE CAME TO REALIZE IS THAT GROWING UP IN EVANSTON MAKES YOU HAVE A SOLID FUCKING SET OF FRIENDS. EVEN WHEN SOMETIMES YOU FEEL ABANDON BY THEM OR YOU HAVE ABANDONED SOME. TONY DEMPSEY, DON'T THINK THAT I WOULDN'T ACKNOWLEDGE YOU. YOU SHOWED ME HOW TO BE STONG AND PROUD OF WHAT I AM AND WHAT IM DOING. PLAYING TERRORIST WITH YOU IS REALLY THE GREATEST HIGHLIGHTS OF MY LIFE. SO I HAVE RANTED FOR QUITE A LONG POST TODAY, I HOPE ALL OF MY FRIENDS GET A CHANCE TO READ THIS SO THEY KNOW HOW I FEEL. I WANT ALL OF YOU TO KNOW THAT I ALWAYS HAVE A COUCH WAITING FOR YOU GUYS TO COME SLEEP ON. I DON'T EVER THINK FOR ONE SECOND THAT I HAVE FORGOTTEN ANY OF YOU. YOUR THE REASONS I HAVE HEART.


-NEB NOTELPATS


P.S. MY PHONE NUMBER HASN'T CHANGED SO DON'T BE AFRAID TO CALL.

FUCK RIGHT!

TODAY I GOT A TATTOO APPOINTMENT FOR THE 13TH!! GOING TO GET A REALISTIC BLOODY GRUESOME HEART ON MY CHEST! THATS ALL FOR NOW.



SINCERELY, BENJAMIN JAMES SAPLETON AKA NEB NOTELPATS





P.S. HEATHER AND ME LEARNED A NEW TRICK SHE CAN SPIT GUM ACROSS THE ROOM INTO MY MOUTH!