IT'S SUMMER

SO IT HAS BEEN ALMOST A MONTH SINCE I HAVE GAVE ANY UPDATES. I DONT THINK MUCH HAS CHANGED. I RECENTLY TOOK A TRIP BACK HOME AND WHEN I SAY HOME I MEAN EASTERN WYOMING. SPENT THE FOURTH WITH SOME GREATLY MISSED FAMILY, AND INTRODUCED HEATHER TO ALL OF THEM. ALL IN ALL IT WAS A GOOD TIME. WHILE ON THIS TRIP I GOT SOME NEWS THOUGH. THIS ISNT NECESSARILY GOOD OR BAD NEWS. IT THE KING OF THING THAT JUST PUNCHES YOU IN THE FACE AND AND LEAVES YOU STUNNED PERMINATLY. WELL ILL STOP BEATING AROUND THE BUSH.. I FOUND OUT THAT MY SO CALLED "FATHER" ISNT REALLY MY BIOLOGICAL FATHER. MY REAL DADS NAME IS STEVE CRAIGHTON. ITS NOT THAT I WAS ADOPTED OR ANYTHING. WHEN MY MOTHER WAS PREGNANT SHE WAS WITH MY SO CALLED "FATHER" AND THEY BOTH KIND OF SECRETLY NEW I WASNT HIS REAL KID, BUT REGARDLESS HE DIDNT WANT TO KNOW WHOSE IT WAS. HE WAS EXCITED TO HAVE ME AS A SON. I WAS BORN DEC. 13TH 1989 AND ON JAN. 13 1990 STEVE CRAIGHTON WAS KILLED IN A CAR ACCENDENT. EXACTLY ONE MONTH AFTER MY BIRTH. IT IS STRANGE FEELING GROWING UP THINKING OF THIS "DAD" THAT IM GOING TO GAIN ALL MY PHYSICAL FEATURES FROM. ALL THESE FAMILY MEMBERS MET AND ARE NOT REALLY FAMILY. THEN AT THE SAME TIME NOT KNOWING ANYONE OR ANYTHING ABOUT MY REAL SELF, AND NOT EVEN BEING ABLE TO FIND THIS OUT. THROUGHOUT THIS SITUATION I THINK I HAVE GROWN TO LOVE AND APPRECIATE MY "FATHER" MORE. HE HAS CARED FOR A ME WITH KNOWING THAT IM NOT HIS REAL SON, THAT I WILL NEVER LOOK, ACT, OR BE APART OF HIS FAMILY. THAT SHOWS TO ME WHAT REAL HEART IS....

-BENJIMAN JAMES STAPLETON


P.S.-I RODE MY BIKE ACROSS THE SALT LAKE CITY VALLEY YESTERDAY... KILING CHRIST MUST BE IN MY BLOOD.